Cosmic Love
Vidder: affablyevil
Fandom: Supernatural
Subject(s): Castiel, Dean; free will against destiny.
Warnings: Massive spoilers for seasons four and five. Violence, character death.
Summary: What would you rather have: peace, or freedom?

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( The boring notes and so on )

Hope you enjoy it!

* I feel obliged to note, on reconsideration, that while I set out intending to talk about these things over the course of making it the story of the video kind of evolved to discuss other themes as they emerged in priority. That being said, please interpret it in whatever way makes your heart sing.

"The Boy is Mine" is playing on one of my coworkers' computers. GABE.

I am not prepared for tomorrow. Massive massive understatement.

Dean: "I'm tired, Sam. I'm tired of this job. This life. This weight on my shoulders, man, I'm tired of it."

Sam: "So you're just going to give up? You're just going to lay down and die?"
- 2.09 Croatoan

I think it's significant that the only time we've ever met Michael was in a place where we could also hang out with our old friend Uriel. If starandrea turns out to be right about this, I'll be pretty damn happy.

Take one down, put it in the ground, ninety-eight problems of the apocalypse on the wall.

There's a lot of people bitching about What Dean Said in 5.17, and I just want to ask them "Are you paying attention?" Besides the fact that deflecting with humor about how great it is to vent anger by killing evil things being Dean's complete M.O., notice that the episode ended with ( spoilers for 5.17 )

I've only watched these promos for 5.18, but you know the last one? I could've sworn I've read this fic before. Of course that was written back in season 4, but fandom can be remarkably prescient at times.

You know, my episode reactions tend to be more geared to fandom reactions of episode reactions. And heh, iTunes, I love it when you're so on point.

I've done it again; changed my layout. While I enjoyed Radioactivity, looking at my flist at night with Nocturne running would make my eyes bleed, which is not a pleasant experience for anyone. Particularly not when I need them to enjoy fanfic. (Pamela must've had a very hard life before she bit it.)

That being said, this layout is probably more political than usual; I blame the mastication of my brain cells from sludging through an overabundance of squabbling meta through linkspam*. I swear, if I hear one more self-proclaimed female fan talking about how online fandom is a "female spaaaaaaaace" I will not be held responsible. Stop gendering fannish practices it is not helping anybody.

To chill out, I've prepared my shanks.

But anyway, LiveJournal layout: "Female" robots. Regulating gender signification by mapping heterosexual binaries on nonbiological bodies. How does that even make sense? I love it. It's as theoretically intelligible as real life. Time to queue up some android sex songs.

Oh and porn. I still enjoy porn, though I think the word "spongey" should not ever appear in a sexual context. Puts a damper on the scene. So to speak.

I haven't talked about Supernatural in awhile, but I'm still reading as voraciously. It's still my primary source of fannish thought all the time — everything else I enjoy I manage to intertexualize with it. Though to be fair, the handprint burn in Legend of the Seeker is not a far stretch considering it is exactly the same thing. Good times. Anyway, Show continues to make me smile on a regular basis and keeps producing awesome fannish works. I'm working myself up to doing something creative, though the massive writer's block sitting on my pituitary gland will probably prohibit the kind of stories I want to be reading.

*Summary: female erasure and not enough femmeslash and women appropriating gay romance publishing genres and slash why are we talking about dicks since we all have vaginas and by the way I am queer today oh my god how dare you and you are a female h8r if you don't enjoy het and even if the chicks are secondary characters you have an obligation to fix them and make them awesome I swear no one will tell you you've made those characters into Mary Sues and it's not possible to appropriate anyway everything is free love but omg help help you are oppressing me stop policing my sexuality I can do what I want no you can't and on and on and on. Also if you're straight shut the hell up. Or something.

SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!

Gosh I am going to spend the whole season trying to hug my screen aren't I?

( And a spoilarish homoerotic question )