affably

I just spent the morning trying to use geodesics to talk about ontology and how legitimate the self-consistency principle might be if we also allow for wave function collapse. And just, no. Affine connections and smooth manifold metrics aside, I've decided that the way angels time travel is just by being really really good at math. Like how humans tend to be good at breathing.

Whereas physics and I have always had an internecine relationship, so. I guess I should be used to this.

I've heard it told that a writer only writes once it becomes unbearable for them not to do so; my continued preference for procrastination via research of quantum mechanics or medieval weapons or the seedy underbelly of the usage of American English over actually getting shit done suggests that nope, I haven't hit that point. Which doesn't stop characters from having ridiculous and repetitive conversations in my head. Well, it's that or it's hell grotesquery and plotless post-apocalyptic word landscapes. Which: unhelpful.

Though it is fun.

( Here, have a cracky gif type thing )

Blanket warning this entry (and probably many many more after) has season 5 spoilers, but since it's been a week I'm not going to lj cut. Apologies to anyone who's behind in their watching and gets spoiled by me.

and I guess I just wanted to tell you
as the lights start to fade
that you are the reason
that I am not afraid

and I guess I just wanted to mention
as the heavens will fall
we will be together soon
if we will be anything at all.
- "Zero Sum" NIN

( Spoilers for 5x22, but likely ones that you've run into at this point )

ETA. I stared at this entry and started feeling like a dick for not cutting it. But at some point I'm going to just talk about aired episodes of season five the way I do of all the other seasons.

Horrifying and unbelievable, but even moreso because it's the place I call home. I'm extremely shocked, disappointed and furious and raging and impotent. It's bizarre and it feels like a dream or a nightmare or something not real. On top of this a close relative dying yesterday it basically all comes down to

Despite f_march_madness helping me find the love of my fandom life this time last year, this year all the characters that I've cared about have been swiftly eliminated. And while some of it is grudge voting of the "I swear to God a female character is going to win this year so help me," all the female characters that I really like have already been voted out* so I've lost any sympathy for that approach. Only Blair Waldorf is still in the game, but she is currently being trounced by Veronica Mars, so.

Which is not to be a whiny loser about it; I just find it disappointing that I can no longer participate as enthusiastically as I was, for all that I was looking forward to it all year. And I know that plenty of people last year felt the same way about the final four, but I wasn't one of them. For all that I'm involved in more bigger fandoms this year it's unlikely that I'm gonna know the final four.

I guess a lot of the shows rounding the finals I've been kind of resistant to watching, though not in any kind of active way.

Let the record show that I did vote for Emily from Skins since thisbrain has had a busy life lately and probably small chance to participate.

* Cara, Parker, Cristina Yang, Joan Holloway, Dean Winchester. Etc, etc, cry moar.

I felt a great disturbance in the Force, as if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror and were suddenly silenced. I fear something terrible has happened.

That would be hiatus.


I have thoughts about My Bloody Valentine beyond "Oh my God, that was awesome!" thisbrain has patiently explained to me that I am warped, which is why episodes like this make me happy. Finally the reason Castiel wouldn't let Dean eat the hamburgers in "Lucifer Rising" has come to light. Also everyone getting non-con hugs is so awesome I don't have words. That episode was so hilarious and awful I loved the crap out of it.


I had a long essay about the "treatment of female characters" in Torchwood in contrast to Supernatural, mostly coming down to issues of agency and politics of the body.

It boils down to this: in Supernatural, nobody gets impregnated against their will*, there's only one female character that carries a longterm torch for a guy (and ultimately turns him down) [Jo], nobody gets dateraped, nobody gets felt up at work or treated like a child [Lilith? Ha!], the major female characters are all physically formidable [Jo, Ellen, Ruby, Meg, Bela, Mary, Anna], three of the female characters pull massive one-overs on the boys [Ruby, Meg, Bela], and every single one of them is doing something independent of the boys' lives.

Am I forgetting any reoccurring characters? I guess Pamela and Tessa, but I don't think I need to make a case for Pamela being awesome and brave and heroic, and I hesitate to include Tessa as a "female character" since she is uh, non-corporeal. The ladies may be fridged/not around enough (according to some people), but their characters are treated with respect. They know what they want, they don't sit around whining about it: they go after it and do what they think is right (or what's evil). They don't wait for direction from other people, they make decisions for themselves.

Fandom reception, however is another matter entirely.

Anyway I was going to yell at the people who think the ladyfolks on Torchwood are done better than on Supernatural (okay I do recognize that this is not, in fact, a Srs Debate), until I started watching Children of Earth. Turns out? Get rid of Jack and Gwen turns awesome. And by awesome I mean, normal. We saw this a bit in "Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang", but seriously, I want Jack to be buried under a ton of cement all the time if this is what we get out of it.

Then again maybe my standards are more lax because I am pretty much completely unable to empathize with any character on this show, so examining "the female role" is more of a point of protest for the haters. Also I haven't finished Children of Earth yet so who knows, it could all go down the crapper.

Video editing is taking over my life. Which, well, since I've heard the song at least a few hundred times by now, it's expected that I'd be crazy.

*ETA Jesse's mom was, but while it was supposed to be all "demon-spawny" he is mostly a well-adjusted kid.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST BRAIN EVER!!!

I am working on your present but it is late so I might have to give it to you as late as IN PERSON BUT THERE IS A PRECEDENT and since I have ALL OF MY TICKETS NOW I am coming for you like Lucifer is coming for Sam so don't be surprised if you wake up and I'm in your bed I'm wearing your burned up dead girlfriend I'm stalking you by getting hypothermia in the snow so I can icicle attack you with my frozen arms and fall on my ass trying to kick a snowball at you wait that totally wasn't me hahaha loser IN ANY CASE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

My sister sent me a card that has a cat getting sent to jail for being "guilty of stalking."

Perhaps she is trying to tell me something.

Robots, cylons, transgenics — I'm starting to think it's just an excuse to explain ridiculously beautiful people: ( also I don't know why I'm surprised anymore that everyone in showbiz seems to know each other )

ETA: Aaron Douglas just showed up as a hotel clerk (2x16) what is happening.
ETA2: And that is definitely Callum Keith Rennie what they are coming out of the woodwork.
ETA3: Okay that is Kandyse McClure what.
ETA4: And that is Alessandro Juliani CONSPIRACY.

"You're handed this precious gift, right? Each one of you granted redemption from the Creator. Murderers, rapists and molesters — all of you, you just have to repent and God takes you into his bosom. In all the worlds in all the universe no other creature can make such a boast, save man. It's not fair. If sweet, sweet God loves you so, then I'll make you worthy of his love.

I've been watching you for a long time. It's only in the face of horror that you truly find your nobler selves.

And you can be so noble." - Gabe


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Being able to watch favorite episodes in 1 week rather than 8?
Priceless.

There are some things money can't buy. For everything else, there's Mastercard.



Manfully resisting watching said episodes at work, but only just. It'll be a piece of cake to rewatch it all before the premiere, considering how I spent most of last night listening to Kripke giggle in my ear and fangirl everyone who works on the show. ♥ I found myself even more impressed with the narrative acrobatics they pulled off in Lucifer Rising, in making every. Single. Season finale. Relevant. I can't think of a show that's ever done that for me before; most season finales tend to be a bit separate and don't have that overarching mytharc going on. I think Buffy did well in harking back to Season One with its series finale, but all the other season finales tended to stand alone. But yeah, Supernatural? Every bad guy has had their part to play.

Which is of course why I am crazy about it.

Somewhere, in a nearby Galaxy, a physicist is shitting a brick and yelling about plagiarism. And Bill Nye is slapping someone.

This gives a whole new meaning to the term "AU". And possibly every fanfic ever written.