Cosmic Love
Vidder: affablyevil
Fandom: Supernatural
Subject(s): Castiel, Dean; free will against destiny.
Warnings: Massive spoilers for seasons four and five. Violence, character death.
Summary: What would you rather have: peace, or freedom?

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( The boring notes and so on )

Hope you enjoy it!

* I feel obliged to note, on reconsideration, that while I set out intending to talk about these things over the course of making it the story of the video kind of evolved to discuss other themes as they emerged in priority. That being said, please interpret it in whatever way makes your heart sing.

Usually I use this space to talk about how much I love Supernatural and how character wars are freaking bogus (but shipping wars? Shipping wars are gold.) But! Because I'm kind of bummed out from reading the anon meme and people being grouchy over there, today I am going to talk about something else!

There's this character who I love, who is strong, nuanced, interesting, and has a fantastical emotional redemptive arc. Her story is believable And bonus? She is unequivocally bisexual. She is Cara Mason, from the series Legend of the Seeker and is my tv girlfriend.

If I was in the habit of, you know. Dating imaginary sociopathic dominatrix cum torturers that make the most hilarious faces when they felt emotions. Ahem.

Note: I did not make these picspams, I am hotlinking them from tumblr because I am a douche but really they are so fantastic. Also, there's a lot of large images so if you have a slow connection don't click while you are trying to torrent porn or something, jeez.
( But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me )

In conclusion:


I was trying to type up this incredibly long essay about how Cara makes my life whole, but well. It basically boils down to the fact that I've never ever related to a female character the way I relate to (and fangirl) her. IT IS A JOY SICKNESS.

Last year arefadeaway cooked up One Girl Revolution which is unilaterally one of my favorite vids ever. However, that being said? Watching it now the absence of Kahlan Amnell and Cara Mason is really freaking GLARING because they are just that uber. Seeker has a lot of slow-mo action scenes and it's mostly Kahlan kicking people in the face while having amazing hair and Cara stopping shuriken with the power of her awesome.

Like, season one is fun and all, but season two is like getting PUNCHED IN THE FACE. Good God I ship them so hard I can barely pay attention to the plot. Is there a plot? I don't even know anymore, I don't even care. There's just these gorgeous amazing characters running around saving people and learning how to have feelings and what's good and moral and right and being in a ~family~ together.

The only downside is that the base textual ideas (from Terry Goodkind's Sword of Truth series) are really problematic and skeevy and yeah, objectivist. Thankfully, the television show is pretty thoughtful in incorporating these problematic aspects to present a positive ideology.

I also have a major insane crush on Kahlan Amnell (the one with dark hair) and she puts me in this warm fuzzy place of wonderfulness but Cara is the one whose promise ring I wear.

Here, have a wallpaper.


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The quote, predictably, is from Book VIII of Paradise Lost. Because all this talk of angel sex required it.


[Poll #1564970]

Here's a genre trope I would not mind having purged from the internet: Castiel being a robot. I mean, unless he's legitimately a robot, which as far as AUs go I haven't seen that yet but I would probably read in a heartbeat.* Dude's thousands of years old, but he is neither a baby lamb nor is he a moron. He uses words like "insouciant" when he's stoned. Which is not even touching on the "Castiel is asexual and therefore is incapable of romantic feelings" school of aggravation, which is about equal to the argument of "X is a homosexual and therefore is excessively flamboyant" in its utter lunacy.

* Though I could have sworn I did read a story in which Sam was Luke, Dean was Han, Bobby was Chewbacca, and Castiel was C-3PO. Or maybe I'm amalgamating a metaphor I read in a fic with a loose piece of fanart? Though there's a proper time and place for a Falcon versus Impala debate. That time and place is not here.

What the hell is all this about Dean!girls versus Sam!girls versus Cas!girls? I mean, they mentioned it in The Monster at the End of This Book but seriously? Seriously? We have to do this? It's not enough to have ship wars we have partition fandom further by having character wars? Screw that!

I DECLARE FOR TEAM GABRIEL. He refuses to choose sides when it comes to teams he loves equally. (Though I do have faith that he's gonna come through for me and pick my team ♥)

On a less facetious note, whatever you do, however you watch a television it's your choice and your life etc. But I personally can't see how that would be fun because you're perpetually getting defensive or angry on a character's behalf or crowing against a character you don't like and it's just. Is it such a crime to love and sympathize with everyone? Because in my experience only loving one half (or one third) of a team is much more frustrating and disappointing.

I am much much more for the team dynamic. Of them kicking ass together and sacrificing themselves for each other and saving each other and yelling at each other when they're wrong or they left their stinky socks in the sink. I could write odes and odes about this.

( short tl;drs about how awesome everyone is )

These guys, even though they're fictional, make me believe in heroes. And I'm supposed to just pick one? Yeah no, I don't think so. I don't want to. They are all also extremely good-looking. This isn't even touching the (somewhat) more minor but nevertheless insanely great characters that I want to hang out with all the time. Or the antagonists that terrify me but have fantastic panache. So drawing all these lines in the sand is insane and weird to me when there's plenty of room for everything. I just can't get behind the mentality. Gosh. I ♥ everyone.

The Dark Side of the Moon was very quintessentially a Supernatural episode, which without giving away anything to those who've yet to watch it, I found fabulous in a similar vein as The Song Remains the Same/Back to the Future II (I'm very attached to its former name, so sue me) only moreso.

At the same time it makes me want to slit my wrists and wallow in my junkie!Castiel playlist, which is 100% songs about heroin and disenchantment. 5x16: I loved it, now I desperately want fic to make me feel better. But yes I want them all to group hug.

In an attempt to not end up dead in a bathroom, instead I've been listening to my Dark Side of the Moon inspired playlist with songs including but not limited to:

Everybody Hurts Helping Haiti
You Are Loved (Don't Give Up) Josh Groban
Hallelujah feat. Charlie Sexton Justin Timberlake
Keep Holding On Glee Cast
I Got You Leona Lewis

Again I reformatted my style, because obviously I have a long attention span. Now might be a good time to point out that because of real life obligations I'm rather drunk at the moment (in before drunk!post!!11!!21) so malfunctioning shit will have to be fixed when I am more clear-eyed.

Today I had a dream nightmare about Ianto Jones forcing Dean Winchester to square dance. It was quite horrifying.

I wonder if Ares and Gabriel would get along.





If they didn't, I'm sure the 21st century would immediately turn into a turf war. Er, more than the apocalypse already is.


Also, is Team Free Will reference to Team Heaven/Team Hell/Team Humanity etc.?

Normally I would think that it was just a coincidence, but we all know how much fanfic Kripke reads.

SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!

Gosh I am going to spend the whole season trying to hug my screen aren't I?

( And a spoilarish homoerotic question )

So remember how I had a headslapping moment about canonical RPF here? Yeah, someone wrote a fanfic in which Becky and Chuck argue about fanfic and profic and RPF and what fanfic means and does to people... while having lolarious comments about Becky being a redshirt and meta and just win. All over.

Writing (And Other Things That Are Hard (Chuck/Becky, PG-13, ~2000 words) "You made me believe in Sam and Dean so much that I wanted to try to make them real, too."

Yes it is amazing read it read it.

Fuck it is fucking September. FIVE DAYS? I cannot deal with this.

Dear Self,

You need to chill the fuck out and stop watching this video and cracking the hell up. It is not healthy to laugh this much. I don't think.


But distracting myself with silly things will only work for so long.

In the meantime, I've been watching random episodes for refreshers here and there, and, well...
( My ability to control what I say while watching them alone has gone out the window )