affably

I hacked my program file on Saturday so that I'd be able to use Final Cut again, and since then I've been in the midst of working frantically to recontextualize narratives and try not to freak out overly much. However while my enthusiasm for it on Saturday probably helped power the entire coast, I got far enough into it that I started running into ideological balance issues and narrative congruity and unfortunately now I have to access my brain and make sure I'm saying what I definitely want to say. Too bad the ending of S5 is extremely frustrating in delivering a lot of the stuff I wanted delivered. But that's okay, because screw you I will take the text and run with it.

That being said, barring any fits of creative rage I have most of the structure worked out and the dramatis personae are all making their appearances, most of the music marked off and a general theme going on.

When the waveforms aren't cooperating or I don't quite have the right set of frames for a clip, at least I have Castiel's stupid mug to stare at. While he's staring back. Creeper.

Dean: "I'm tired, Sam. I'm tired of this job. This life. This weight on my shoulders, man, I'm tired of it."

Sam: "So you're just going to give up? You're just going to lay down and die?"
- 2.09 Croatoan

I think it's significant that the only time we've ever met Michael was in a place where we could also hang out with our old friend Uriel. If starandrea turns out to be right about this, I'll be pretty damn happy.

Take one down, put it in the ground, ninety-eight problems of the apocalypse on the wall.

There's a lot of people bitching about What Dean Said in 5.17, and I just want to ask them "Are you paying attention?" Besides the fact that deflecting with humor about how great it is to vent anger by killing evil things being Dean's complete M.O., notice that the episode ended with ( spoilers for 5.17 )

I've only watched these promos for 5.18, but you know the last one? I could've sworn I've read this fic before. Of course that was written back in season 4, but fandom can be remarkably prescient at times.

You know, my episode reactions tend to be more geared to fandom reactions of episode reactions. And heh, iTunes, I love it when you're so on point.

Despite f_march_madness helping me find the love of my fandom life this time last year, this year all the characters that I've cared about have been swiftly eliminated. And while some of it is grudge voting of the "I swear to God a female character is going to win this year so help me," all the female characters that I really like have already been voted out* so I've lost any sympathy for that approach. Only Blair Waldorf is still in the game, but she is currently being trounced by Veronica Mars, so.

Which is not to be a whiny loser about it; I just find it disappointing that I can no longer participate as enthusiastically as I was, for all that I was looking forward to it all year. And I know that plenty of people last year felt the same way about the final four, but I wasn't one of them. For all that I'm involved in more bigger fandoms this year it's unlikely that I'm gonna know the final four.

I guess a lot of the shows rounding the finals I've been kind of resistant to watching, though not in any kind of active way.

Let the record show that I did vote for Emily from Skins since thisbrain has had a busy life lately and probably small chance to participate.

* Cara, Parker, Cristina Yang, Joan Holloway, Dean Winchester. Etc, etc, cry moar.